I’ve decided to write. What else could I do? I thought I’d go and draw in the garden but, no. I just came right back to my laptop and started writing. Maybe I don’t have Writer’s Block. Maybe that’s just the same feeling I get every week, ‘I’m not creative right now, let me watch Doctor Who in my room and shut myself from Earth for as long as possible’
As soon as I took my ‘break’, it didn’t feel better at all. You may think I’ve only been gone a day but really, I haven’t. I have been away for about half a month. Yup, not writing. And it felt awful.
When I was back at school last week (I’ve just had a half-term break), I had so many ideas racing through my head. Did I write them down? No. Of course not. I just let them fly away. For this last few weeks I definetely felt as if I was poo. I didn’t have any motivation; I stopped writing in my bullet journal; and worst of all, I’d lost my creative ‘spin’ – as it is so-called.
It feels a lot better now, I’ve started reading more and my writing hasn’t completely ditched my heart. Something’s there at least, a little tiny gut that knows what it wants to do. I’ve also given up on all other social media. I’ve left my PopJam (that’s a little art platform I’ve been on since I was 9), I’ve abandoned my Pinterest and taken no attention to YouTube. I’m not very well noticed on these things – I don’t grab attention as I used to. But it’s no good taking a break because I’ve not even began to climb the mountain yet. I’m just hydrating myself and doing some preparation before the hike begins.
It seems that everyone wants to be a full-time YouTuber now, or a blogger (wait, is blogging kind of dead now?). These platforms are now getting ‘over-saturated’, as you may say. But I guess it’s too awesome to miss. I don’t know what I want to do when I grow up, but I think YouTube or Instagram is a good start for people. You can begin to earn money by just being stupid – but that’s where the world is going wrong.
I’m not going to write for much longer.
No, I’m really not, am I that engaging you keep reading?
Well then, have a wonderful day!